This must be the way down.

If you believe in me, I'll believe in you.
I'm with you, if you want me to.

if it makes you happy

Something we want, Something we need, Something we crave, Something we see, Something we search desperately for, Something we deserve, Something we can't live without. Without it we're miserable, Without it we become cold, Without it we become distant, Without it we become depressed. With it we find comfort, With it we have hope, With it we survive, With it we smile, With it we give, With it we live.

Regrets

"If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultamately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back."

-- Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill.

Lost & Found

For the past few weeks I've been constantly getting that really bad stomach feeling. You know, the feeling where you feel like you're going to be sick. The feeling that makes you want to crawl into a dark corner and stay there for a really long time; just disappear for awhile? Yeah, that feeling. Today that feeling is gone, and I feel such relief you would not even believe. It feels good, I feel good now. And now that the feeling is gone I decided that I'm going to be making some changes, good changes. I'm going to start making the most of everything; school, friends, family, Gaspé, life in general. I realized that I've been taking everything I have for granted; especially friends. In the last few days I found out who my real friends are. I could honestly say now that I could not live without them. Moving back to Montreal this summer is going to be a lot harder than I ever imagined. I always said "I can't wait to get out of this place! " but now.. it's different. It's going to be emotional and I know I'm going to miss it like crazy. I miss my friends already and I haven't even left yet, it sounds weird but it makes perfect sense in my head. I decided that I'm going to make a huge scrap book thingy with pictures of everyone and everything; all of my Gaspé memories in it. It's going to be pretty damn awesome I think. It's my new project and I'm going to be starting really soon! =D

Twelve AM.

It's like, 12am and i'm literally wide awake so I decided to post another blog thingy. Why is it that everytime you want to be tired, you're wide awake? I hate that. I hate having to wake up at 6am for school (okay so by the time I actually get out of bed it's like 6:30, but still.) It's so hard. I really despise mornings with a passion, i'm definately a night person all the way. The worst part is that you can't even lay down and try to get some sleep because you end up laying there with a million things running through your mind which makes it even harder to fall asleep. Then you look at the time and realize you need to be up in just a few hours so you try to force yourself to fall asleep but still nothing. How depressing, bah! Anyways. Lately I've been really into this band called Automatic Loveletter. I found out about them when I was looking at the bands that'll be playing at the Vans Warped Tour this summer in Montreal. I fell in love with them as soon as I heard them. I love discovering new bands, it makes me happy. I definately recommend them and to start off by listening to their songs Hush and Unhearted. They're both great songs. She always writes really good lyrics! I'm really into that lately; the lyrics. Everything is about good, meaningful lyrics. I used to like a song for the song but now I always read the lyrics carefully and that's usually how I find my favorite songs. Need to try and fall asleep now, tomorrow morning is going to suck a lot.

Hello New Blog.

So I've been thinking about making a blog for a really long time now, and I decided i'll make one for real this time. I don't expect too much out of it, just a place for me to rant and talk about how I feel whether you agree with it or not. Anyway this is it, enjoy!

PS; Yes, I realize that this is a very crappy, short first blog post.. but they'll get better =]